Sick of being sad
fed up of being fraught,
bored of the same old dramas
desperately wanting more.
I lived on hope,
I loved in vain.
You couldn't come close
you wouldn't maintain.
The hurts cut deep,
the trust destroyed.
We talked, I thought,
You didn't listen.
Breaking free,
it's time to be.
I'll miss your smile....
But I missed me more.
June 2018
Tuesday, 18 September 2018
Tuesday, 20 September 2016
The Worry Worm....
'worry', just a little word,
but what a mess you can create....all by yourself!
You take a situation and saturate it with doubt and fear,
then cause unrest and troubled mind
just by drip feeding thoughts that stress.
As each thought adds to the cauldron of despair,
those worries add in to the brew and soon, before you know it,
you've lost the way to go,
for worry clouds the mind, stops action dead in its tracks,
and takes away the satisfaction of dealing with the challenges you'll find.
Worry niggles, pushes and pulls, and whispers deep in your heart,
chipping away your faith and confidence,
until tears spill...and sleep is lost
and the smile is gone.
So, what has worry gained?
what was its purpose here?
why has it worked so hard to make you feel so drained?
Does it delight in all your pain?
does it thrive through sapping your energy?
does it feed on all the negativity?
and does it desire a broken spirit, so it may live again?
And for you...what do you get in return for its visit?
what gift does it bring to thank you for its stay?
what promise for the future does it offer as it worms deeper and deeper on its way?
Do you know....I can think of nothing that worry will bring for you,
no hidden gift, no lovely surprise,
no laughter in your eyes.
For worry is a selfish guest, he stays as long as he may,
to take, to break, to tear, to fear,
to do what he does best,
to bring you down and lose your hope of success, in each and every way.
But worry can not linger in a heart that lets in hope,
and worry is turned away, when faith is allowed to grow.
It cannot survive when positivity and action together, push worry aside,
it dies and shrivels, it cannot worm and thrive inside.
Of course it is not that easy, to just up and push worry right out
it'll fight and resist to get its own way
but love and peace will restore the calm as 'what will be will be'; we bravely face
and worry will be firmly put away
as tomorrow, the future we embrace.
but what a mess you can create....all by yourself!
You take a situation and saturate it with doubt and fear,
then cause unrest and troubled mind
just by drip feeding thoughts that stress.
As each thought adds to the cauldron of despair,
those worries add in to the brew and soon, before you know it,
you've lost the way to go,
for worry clouds the mind, stops action dead in its tracks,
and takes away the satisfaction of dealing with the challenges you'll find.
Worry niggles, pushes and pulls, and whispers deep in your heart,
chipping away your faith and confidence,
until tears spill...and sleep is lost
and the smile is gone.
So, what has worry gained?
what was its purpose here?
why has it worked so hard to make you feel so drained?
Does it delight in all your pain?
does it thrive through sapping your energy?
does it feed on all the negativity?
and does it desire a broken spirit, so it may live again?
And for you...what do you get in return for its visit?
what gift does it bring to thank you for its stay?
what promise for the future does it offer as it worms deeper and deeper on its way?
Do you know....I can think of nothing that worry will bring for you,
no hidden gift, no lovely surprise,
no laughter in your eyes.
For worry is a selfish guest, he stays as long as he may,
to take, to break, to tear, to fear,
to do what he does best,
to bring you down and lose your hope of success, in each and every way.
But worry can not linger in a heart that lets in hope,
and worry is turned away, when faith is allowed to grow.
It cannot survive when positivity and action together, push worry aside,
it dies and shrivels, it cannot worm and thrive inside.
Of course it is not that easy, to just up and push worry right out
it'll fight and resist to get its own way
but love and peace will restore the calm as 'what will be will be'; we bravely face
and worry will be firmly put away
as tomorrow, the future we embrace.
Butterflies
Once
upon a time a fairytale came true...
and
I met you....
The
butterflies dance and waltzed
and
I was entranced...
wondrous
at the somersaults they made deep within.
But,
as you came, you went as quickly
and
the butterflies lay still, and wept.
Their
tears stinging as the winters rain,
and
in time with no dancing to do, they slept,
a
fitful sleep as hope was killed by pain.
Time
passed and sleeping butterflies awoke
recognising
anticipation and the joy of hope,
but
it was in truth an illusion,
no
love returned, no cause for dance,
for
all this pretender brought was confusion.
So,
how long can butterflies survive?
Feeding
alone on hope and the promise of love?
But,
as these dwindle and diminish
do
they too perish?
Or
are butterflies encapsulated in a vial for eternity,
dancing
so quietly, not even I can notice?
Yet
I crave their speed, their grace, their joy
as
they flit around and make me gasp.
Can
another love ignite their dance?
Will
there be in time a breaking free
of
butterflies celebrating joy in me?
Thursday, 17 December 2015
Come on My Future
Come
on My Future
Too
fast, too slow, too head long, too scared,
too
many mistakes, too many attempts,
too
desperate to find you,
too
much searching, too much angst,
too
much emotion.
Slow
down I must,
patience
I must have.
Delight
in the now there must be.
Learning
from the past I must take.
Moving
forward steadily I must go,
trusting
in the path of destiny....I must!!
Loving
the life I am having,
knowing
the truth,
understanding
destiny.
Preparation meeting opportunity.
I
have prepared,
now
lets embrace opportunity.
Come
on my future
I
am here....
29.9.15
A Place, Apart
A
place, Apart
So
here we are,
A
place, apart.
Dreams
have come and gone
and
my bed is cold on your side.
You
just upped, and left
and
tore my world in two.
You
didn't look back,
no
glance was cast
No
second thought to repair
the
heart that beat for you.
The
beat that steadily stopped as it realised,
you
had, for real,
just
gone.
But
why? Why did the love grow cold?
Why
did it not show,
how
could I not know?
I
feel a fool, you played along
and
made me feel you loved me
when
now I see,
it
was not to be
your
greater love was you.
16th
June 2015A
Tuesday, 20 October 2015
I am living with a chronic illness, this poem resonates with me, I hope you take something from it. Written by John O'Donoghue
Now is the time of dark invitation
Beyond a frontier that you did not expect;
Abruptly, your old life seems distant.
You barely noticed how each day opened
A path through fields never questioned,
Yet expected deep down to hold treasure.
Now your time on earth becomes full of threat;
Before your eyes your future shrinks.
You lived absorbed in the day to day,
So continuous with everything around you,
That you could forget you were separate;
Now this dark companion has come between you,
Distances have opened in your eyes,
You feel that against your will
A stranger has married your heart.
Nothing before has made you
Feel so isolated and lost.
When the reverberations of shock subside in you,
May grace come to restore you to balance.
May it shape a new space in your heart
To embrace this illness as a teacher
Who has come to open your life to new worlds.
May you find in yourself
A courageous hospitality
Towards what is difficult,
Painful and unknown.
May you use this illness
As a lantern to illuminate
The new qualities that will emerge in you.
May the fragile harvesting of this slow light
Help you to release whatever has become false in you.
May you trust this light to clear a path
Through all the fog of old unease and anxiety
Until you feel arising within you a tranquility
Profound enough to call the storm to stillness.
May you find the wisdom to listen to your illness:
Ask it why it came? Why it chose your friendship?
Where it wants to take you? What it wants you to know?
What quality of space it wants to create in you?
What you need to learn to become more fully yourself
That your presence may shine in the world.
May you keep faith with your body,
Learning to see it as a holy sanctuary
Which can bring this night-wound gradually
Towards the healing and freedom of dawn.
May you be granted the courage and vision
To work through passivity and self-pity,
To see the beauty you can harvest
From the riches of this dark invitation.
May you learn to receive it graciously,
And promise to learn swiftly
That it may leave you newborn,
Willing to dedicate your time to birth.
Now is the time of dark invitation
Beyond a frontier that you did not expect;
Abruptly, your old life seems distant.
You barely noticed how each day opened
A path through fields never questioned,
Yet expected deep down to hold treasure.
Now your time on earth becomes full of threat;
Before your eyes your future shrinks.
You lived absorbed in the day to day,
So continuous with everything around you,
That you could forget you were separate;
Now this dark companion has come between you,
Distances have opened in your eyes,
You feel that against your will
A stranger has married your heart.
Nothing before has made you
Feel so isolated and lost.
When the reverberations of shock subside in you,
May grace come to restore you to balance.
May it shape a new space in your heart
To embrace this illness as a teacher
Who has come to open your life to new worlds.
May you find in yourself
A courageous hospitality
Towards what is difficult,
Painful and unknown.
May you use this illness
As a lantern to illuminate
The new qualities that will emerge in you.
May the fragile harvesting of this slow light
Help you to release whatever has become false in you.
May you trust this light to clear a path
Through all the fog of old unease and anxiety
Until you feel arising within you a tranquility
Profound enough to call the storm to stillness.
May you find the wisdom to listen to your illness:
Ask it why it came? Why it chose your friendship?
Where it wants to take you? What it wants you to know?
What quality of space it wants to create in you?
What you need to learn to become more fully yourself
That your presence may shine in the world.
May you keep faith with your body,
Learning to see it as a holy sanctuary
Which can bring this night-wound gradually
Towards the healing and freedom of dawn.
May you be granted the courage and vision
To work through passivity and self-pity,
To see the beauty you can harvest
From the riches of this dark invitation.
May you learn to receive it graciously,
And promise to learn swiftly
That it may leave you newborn,
Willing to dedicate your time to birth.
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